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Depressed Not Dead (jamoalki) -Battling depression and suicide

English, Fitness / Keep-fit, 1 season, 345 episodes, 5 days, 17 hours, 11 minutes
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Join me as I attempt to rise above my depression and suicidal ideations.
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#261 Therapy (again)

Listen in as I try to figure out what I'm doing with therapy.
7/11/202419 minutes, 17 seconds
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#260 Andy

My brother passed away this week.
7/4/202417 minutes, 13 seconds
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#259 Driving From an Eclipse

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk while driving home from the eclipse.     Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/16/20231 hour, 4 minutes, 14 seconds
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#258 Chit Chat on the Porch

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk while hanging out on the back porch     Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/21/202321 minutes, 44 seconds
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#257 Suicide Noted

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk on Sean's amazing podcast "Suicide Noted."   Go check out his show here. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/suicide-noted/id1524213865 Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/14/20231 hour, 4 minutes, 8 seconds
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#256 Anxiety?

9/12/202323 minutes, 31 seconds
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Wedding Eve Jitters

9/3/202324 minutes, 39 seconds
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#254 Guess Who's Back

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about why I left and why I'm back. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
8/30/202321 minutes, 13 seconds
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#253 Ernie From Boston

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/23/202338 minutes, 26 seconds
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#252 Storytime With Dave pt2

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/17/202350 minutes, 19 seconds
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#251 Storytime With Dave pt1

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/15/202348 minutes, 56 seconds
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#250 Med Talking to Death

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/2/202321 minutes, 29 seconds
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#249 Poor Time Management

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/26/202316 minutes, 32 seconds
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#248 Pre and Post Half

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/19/202327 minutes, 47 seconds
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#247 Sweet Dreams

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/11/202335 minutes, 29 seconds
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#246 Salesmanship

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/4/202322 minutes, 19 seconds
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#245 New McDonald's, Same Old Me

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/26/202322 minutes, 12 seconds
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#244 Thoughts on MSU

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/19/202339 minutes, 39 seconds
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#243 McDonalds Chitchat

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/11/202328 minutes, 45 seconds
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#242 Cold Runnings

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/4/202320 minutes, 22 seconds
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#241 Party Time

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/29/202324 minutes, 24 seconds
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#240 57. Catch-up with Claire (Exercising Depression Podcast)

"Welcome back! Yes, last week wasn't a fever dream, I've done it. Another episode in the bag. And what a great one! I caught up with my good friend JP this week, we talked about our podcasts, traveling and friendship. " Claire's Links: WeProgress Film Blog  Contact me! Email: [email protected] Twitter: @EDepressionPod Instagram: @ExercisingDepression_Podcast #mentalhealthday #worldmentalhealthday #mentalhelathawareness
1/22/202334 minutes, 10 seconds
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#239 Rough Week

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/21/202323 minutes, 49 seconds
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#238 First Ramble of the New Year

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/13/202331 minutes, 4 seconds
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#237 Deliberate

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/7/202325 minutes, 33 seconds
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#236 The End and the Beginning

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/29/202217 minutes, 16 seconds
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#235 Bye Bye Wellbutrin

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/17/202231 minutes, 56 seconds
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#234 RDU Chat

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
8/22/202229 minutes, 5 seconds
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#233 It's a Bird, It's a Plane

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
7/29/202230 minutes, 31 seconds
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#232 Babbling Nonsense

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/11/202217 minutes, 35 seconds
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#231 Pangs of Worry?

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/30/202252 minutes, 15 seconds
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#230 Rationalizing Motivation

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/14/202222 minutes, 47 seconds
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#229 Introducing Mark

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as my friend Mark introduces himself. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/13/202224 minutes, 2 seconds
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#228 Trying To Be A Better Jp

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/4/202225 minutes, 59 seconds
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#227 Still Trying To Be Regular

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about a menagerie of topics. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/13/202223 minutes, 5 seconds
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#226 Hey, It's 2022

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about why I've been away, running, therapy, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/23/202224 minutes, 15 seconds
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#225 Black Friday Special

Thanks for listening to this episode!   Listen in as I talk about running, a reminder I got from Claire, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/27/202116 minutes, 21 seconds
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#224 Oh, Hello There

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I'm still here, believe it or not. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/18/202115 minutes, 1 second
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7/31/20211 minute, 19 seconds
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#222 A New Paradigm?

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about work (again), friends, and an attempt to look at the days differently. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
7/18/202125 minutes, 34 seconds
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#221 Driving and Crying?

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about work making me emotional and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
7/13/202123 minutes, 29 seconds
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#220 Working With Friends

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about making and keeping friends, work woes, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
7/3/202122 minutes, 32 seconds
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#219 Revisiting

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about hobbies, friends, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
6/27/202128 minutes, 30 seconds
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#218 MRI and BMI

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about dieting, getting an MRI, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
6/22/202116 minutes, 47 seconds
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#217 Back Porch Ramblings

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about running, work, life, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
6/13/202120 minutes, 32 seconds
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#216 Good or Bad

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about running, work, life, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
6/9/202122 minutes, 46 seconds
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#215 New Friend Blabber

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about running, therapy, work, making a "new friend", and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/23/202124 minutes, 29 seconds
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#214 It's Been 2 Weeks

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about running, therapy, work, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/8/202124 minutes, 28 seconds
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#213 Post Run Chat

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about running, emotions, therapy, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/24/202129 minutes, 59 seconds
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#211 Just The Way Life Is

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about a therapy revelation, binge eating, anxiety, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/7/202124 minutes, 1 second
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#212 Live From RDU

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about my pending trip to Michigan, my new face mask, blushing, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/7/202116 minutes, 37 seconds
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#210 More Drive Time

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about how I need to work on my self-care and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/29/202126 minutes, 32 seconds
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#209 Did I Say It's Early?

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about how the therapies are going, how busy work's been, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/18/202132 minutes, 34 seconds
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#208 How Do I Miss You

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about how I don't miss people, even though I say I do and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/9/202121 minutes, 46 seconds
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#207 Meet Jill

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk with my friend Jill about being young and dealing with mental illness. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/27/20211 hour, 6 minutes, 7 seconds
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#206 Driver's License

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about physical health, mental health, ocular health, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/13/202122 minutes, 52 seconds
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#205 The Week In Review

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about why the show is late, therapy, med check my girls, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/8/202122 minutes, 57 seconds
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#204 On The Run Again

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about hitting the trail to run, the week ahead, hopes for therapy, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/29/202116 minutes, 45 seconds
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#203 Therapy For All

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about starting therapy again, therapy, more therapy talk, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/22/202125 minutes, 56 seconds
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#202 More To Walk About

Thanks for listening to this episode!   I talk about things that are my lingering injury, my lacking communication, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags: Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/16/202126 minutes, 40 seconds
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#201 All The News That's New

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about things that are new, some things that suck, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/9/202130 minutes, 21 seconds
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#200 200 2020

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about the year that was, a little about the future, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/31/202029 minutes, 10 seconds
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#199 Christmas Tidings

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about Christmas gifts, knee woes, eating, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/25/202023 minutes, 32 seconds
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#198 Cold Morning Runs

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about the cold weather, birthday gifts, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/19/202020 minutes, 38 seconds
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#197 Getting Older

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about getting older, running, work, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/12/202021 minutes, 10 seconds
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#196 Deservedness

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about what is deserved, running, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/5/202020 minutes, 58 seconds
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#195 When I'm Gone

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how Eminem hit me in the feels, running, work, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/27/202031 minutes, 4 seconds
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#194 My Mind is Full of Garage Crap

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I ponder the similarities between garage crap and my mental/emotional mindset, there's been some travel, and more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/21/202022 minutes, 17 seconds
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#193 Achilles Update

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   Just an update on the state of Jp's life. I'm back to running, I wonder if the days are short or long, and some updates on work. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/15/202020 minutes, 34 seconds
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#192 Election Update

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   Just an update on the state of Jp's life. It's been a while and once again I am committing to thinking about trying to be more consistent with these episodes. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/8/202028 minutes, 1 second
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#191 30 Q's About Me

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   My amazing friend Kate dug up some questions to ask me. Hopefully nothing too shocking. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/7/202049 minutes, 15 seconds
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#190 Almost a Year

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about it being a year since Dad passed, how I'm "feeling", and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/5/202022 minutes, 6 seconds
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#189 New Stuff Is Happening

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about what's kept me away for so long, how I'm "feeling", and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
8/23/202030 minutes, 57 seconds
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#188j Return To The Darkness

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about what's kept me away for so long, how I'm "feeling", and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
7/16/202035 minutes, 23 seconds
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6/8/202044 minutes, 56 seconds
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SAH #71 Baby Face

Heya, it's day seventy-one of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
6/5/202010 minutes, 52 seconds
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SAH #70

Heya, it's day seventy of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
6/4/20209 minutes, 59 seconds
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SAH #69 See A Penny Pick It Up...

Heya, it's day sixty-nine of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
6/3/202010 minutes, 21 seconds
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SAH #68 Race And Me

Heya, it's day sixty-eight of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
6/2/20209 minutes
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SAH #67 Bad Feelings

Heya, it's day sixty-seven of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
6/1/202011 minutes, 28 seconds
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SAH #66 How Old Are You

Heya, it's day sixty-six of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/31/202012 minutes, 24 seconds
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SAH #65 Needing Something Fresher

Heya, it's day sixty-five of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/30/202011 minutes, 33 seconds
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SAH #64 In The End

Heya, it's day sixty-four of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/29/202011 minutes, 45 seconds
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#188i Running Is So Hard

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how running has gotten difficult again, what's got me feeling down, and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/28/202015 minutes, 47 seconds
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SAH #63 TBT Episode 2

Heya, it's day sixty-three of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/28/202010 minutes, 49 seconds
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SAH #62 Run For Food

Heya, it's day sixty-two of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/27/202010 minutes, 32 seconds
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SAH #61 Episode One Throwback

Heya, it's day sixty-one of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/26/202018 minutes, 49 seconds
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SAH #60 Running Into A Short Show

Heya, it's day sixty of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/25/20207 minutes, 52 seconds
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SAH #59b Day 59 Redux

Heya, it's still day fifty-nine of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/24/202011 minutes, 12 seconds
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SAH #59 Special Host Shaun

Heya, it's day fifty-nine of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/23/202013 minutes, 28 seconds
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SAH #58 Simpsonify Me

Heya, it's day fifty-eight of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/23/202011 minutes, 23 seconds
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SAH #57 Study Me

Heya, it's day fifty-seven of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/22/202012 minutes, 6 seconds
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#188h Still No Feels

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how I still have no emotions, how the pandemic is going for me, and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/21/202025 minutes, 52 seconds
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SAH #56 8 Weeks In

Heya, it's day fifty-six of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/21/202012 minutes, 13 seconds
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SAH #55 Driving And Chatting

Heya, it's day fifty-five of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/20/202012 minutes, 51 seconds
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SAH #54 Get Up And Face The Rain

Heya, it's day fifty-four of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/19/202011 minutes, 36 seconds
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SAH #53 I Burned The Pizza

Heya, It's day fifty-three of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/18/202014 minutes, 38 seconds
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SAH #52 A Nice Story About Nice Jp

Heya, it's day fifty-two of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/17/202012 minutes, 21 seconds
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SAH #51 Another Good Day

Heya, it's day fifty-one of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/16/202012 minutes, 2 seconds
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SAH #50 I'm Crabby, So Crabby

Heya, it's day 50(!) of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/15/20208 minutes, 28 seconds
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#188g Pandemic Eating

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how I think I'm doing during the pandemic, a call to arms to help a friend, and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/14/202023 minutes, 43 seconds
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SAH #49 Put Away Your Sno-Cones

Heya, it's day forty-nine of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/14/202012 minutes, 23 seconds
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SAH #48 Running Faster And Working Longer

Heya, it's day forty-eight of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/13/202013 minutes, 35 seconds
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SAH #47 Send Your Warm Thoughts

Heya, it's day forty-seven of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/12/20207 minutes, 11 seconds
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SAH #46 Happy Belated Mother's Day

Heya, it's day forty-six of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/11/202011 minutes, 17 seconds
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SAH #45 To Makeup Or Not To Makeup

Heya, it's day forty-five of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/10/202014 minutes, 33 seconds
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SAH #44 Put Your Car In Park

Heya, it's day forty-four of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/9/202014 minutes, 6 seconds
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SAH #43 Don't Be Late

Heya, it's day forty-three of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/8/202011 minutes, 46 seconds
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#188f Driving And 'Casting

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about a chat with a friend, how I think I'm doing during the pandemic and much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
5/7/202027 minutes, 33 seconds
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SAH #42 Can I Have A Guest Host?

Heya, it's day forty-two of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/7/202012 minutes, 10 seconds
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SAH #41 Fat Is The New Thin?

Heya, it's day forty-one of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/6/202012 minutes, 40 seconds
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SAH #40 Top Ten Tuesday: TV Shows

Heya, it's day forty of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/5/202015 minutes, 46 seconds
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SAH #39 Boring Days

Heya, it's day thirty-nine of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/4/202010 minutes, 50 seconds
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SAH #38 Crabby With A Side Of Plasma

Heya, it's day thirty-eight of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/3/202012 minutes, 50 seconds
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SAH #37 Manah Manah

Heya, it's day thirty-seven of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/2/202013 minutes, 10 seconds
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SAH #36 Dark Night Of The Scarecrow

Heya friends, it's day thirty-six of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
5/1/202013 minutes, 5 seconds
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#188e Lifetime Of Remorse?

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being a looking back on my life, the rain, and oh so much more. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/30/202021 minutes, 19 seconds
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SAH #35 So Much Rain

Heya friends, it's day thirty-five of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/30/202013 minutes, 22 seconds
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SAH #34 TEN Pounds!!

Heya, it's day thirty-four of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/29/202013 minutes, 24 seconds
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SAH #33 Crappy Business Learning

Heya, it's day thirty-three of being stuck at home with me, Jp
4/28/202011 minutes, 53 seconds
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SAH #32 Seven Miles Is So Far

Heya, welcome to day thirty-two of being stuck at home with me, Jp
4/27/202013 minutes, 7 seconds
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SAH #31 What's The Future Gonna Look Like

Heya, it's day thirty-one of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/26/202012 minutes, 36 seconds
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SAH #30 Looking To Pay It Forward

Heya, it's day thirty of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/25/202014 minutes, 6 seconds
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SAH #29 And The Winner Is...

Heya, it's day twenty-nine of staying at home with me, Jp
4/24/202013 minutes, 34 seconds
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#188d Pandemic State Of Mind

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being a proud papa, how things are going staying at home, and sleep habits. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/23/202020 minutes, 56 seconds
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SAH #28 Jumping The Shark

Heya, it's day twenty-eight of being at home with me, Jp
4/23/202014 minutes, 21 seconds
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SAH #27 Thermostats

Heya, it's day twenty-seven of being stuck at home with me, Jp
4/22/202013 minutes, 40 seconds
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SAH #26 BabyMetal! Gimme Chocolate

Heya, it's day twenty-six of being stuck at home with me, Jp
4/21/202015 minutes, 46 seconds
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SAH #25 Monday Blues

Heya, it's day twenty-five of being stuck at home with me.
4/20/202013 minutes, 27 seconds
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SAH #24

Heya! It's day twenty-four of being stuck at home with me.
4/19/202015 minutes, 39 seconds
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SAH #23 Try-Athalon?

It's day twenty-three of being stuck at home with me
4/18/202012 minutes, 34 seconds
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SAH #22 It's Been A Good Week

Heya, it's day twenty-two of being at home with me, Jp!
4/17/202013 minutes
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#188c Am I Doing The Right Thing?

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being a proud papa, how things are going staying at home, and sleep habits. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/16/202024 minutes, 27 seconds
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SAH #21 Brr, It's Cold

Hey, it's day twenty-one of being stuck at home with me.
4/16/202012 minutes, 36 seconds
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SAH #20 Hi Ho Hi Ho

It's day twenty of being stuck at home with me, Jp!
4/15/202011 minutes, 51 seconds
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SAH #19 Idle Tuesday Chatter

It's day nineteen of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/14/202010 minutes, 11 seconds
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SAH #18 Parachute On My Car

Heya, it's day eighteen of being stuck at home with me
4/13/202013 minutes, 4 seconds
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SAH #17 Good News For Easter

It's day seventeen of being stuck at home with me, Jp.
4/12/202017 minutes, 5 seconds
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SAH #16 Naps Are Good

It's day sixteen of being at home with me, Jp.
4/11/202014 minutes, 15 seconds
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SAH #15 TGIF

It's day fifteen of being at home with me.
4/10/20209 minutes, 41 seconds
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#188b Stay At Home Blues

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being a proud papa, how things are going staying at home, and sleep habits. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/9/202023 minutes, 17 seconds
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SAH #14 Rain Rain Go Away

It's day fourteen of staying home with me
4/9/202014 minutes, 40 seconds
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SAH #13 Six Pounds

It's day thirteen of being stuck at home with me.
4/8/202014 minutes, 48 seconds
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SAH #12 Fired Up Feeling Bummy

It's day twelve, come hang out with me for a few minutes.
4/7/202011 minutes, 32 seconds
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SAH #11 The World Still Isn't Burning

It's day eleven of staying at home with me. 
4/6/202014 minutes, 24 seconds
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SAH #10 Birthdays All Around

It's day ten of staying at home with me.
4/5/202014 minutes, 32 seconds
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SAH #9

It's day nine of being under stay at home orders.
4/4/202010 minutes, 51 seconds
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SAH #8 Basketball4Lyfe

Day eight of being at home. I talk about basketball!
4/3/202010 minutes, 53 seconds
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#188a School Over Fun

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being a proud papa, how things are going staying at home, and sleep habits. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
4/2/202017 minutes, 45 seconds
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SAH #7 Music I Like

It's day 7 of being at home. Join me as I talk music a little bit.
4/2/202012 minutes, 32 seconds
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Bonus #1 My Chat With Claire

Hey everyone. Bonus episode time. My dear friend Claire and I finally got a chance to catch up. Embrace your inner voyeur and have a listen.
4/1/202049 minutes, 34 seconds
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SAH #6 Contest You Say?

It's day 6 of being stuck at home with me. 
4/1/202013 minutes, 49 seconds
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SAH #5 The Great Filter

It's day five, have a seat and listen to me ramble about sciencey stuff.   Today's opening song is We Didn't Start The Fire by Billy Joel
3/31/202014 minutes, 59 seconds
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SAH #4 I Had A Dream

It's day four and I had a stressful dream last night.
3/30/202012 minutes, 35 seconds
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SAH #3 I'm Part Of The Problem

It's day 3 and I acknowledge that I'm part of the COVID problem.
3/29/202012 minutes, 49 seconds
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SAH #2 Careful What You Read

It's day 2 of staying at home. Listen in as I ramble on about thoughts from my walk.
3/28/202016 minutes, 15 seconds
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SAH #1 Introduction

Here's the first of my new, temporary, daily podcast for the Corona 2020 season. I hope you enjoy it.
3/27/202010 minutes, 19 seconds
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#188 Weird Times

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how work is going, intrusive thoughts, and concerns about the near future. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/26/202021 minutes, 36 seconds
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#187 Base Function

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about what I'm doing to try to stay healthy Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/19/202015 minutes, 47 seconds
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#186 Isolating

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about isolating lately. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/14/202017 minutes, 2 seconds
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#185 News That Affects You

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about some things. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
3/7/20209 minutes, 27 seconds
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#184 Send Me Your Feedback

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about some things I'd like your feedback on and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/28/202017 minutes, 39 seconds
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#183 Lonely and Unmotivated

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about the undeniable feeling of being lonely, being unmotivated, new cars, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/20/202015 minutes, 49 seconds
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#182 Mindfulness With Shaun

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with mindfulness practitioner and advisor Shaun about how he got into mindfulness, what it means to him and maybe, just maybe how I could get started into it, and more! Check him out on twitter https://twitter.com/mindfulness_for And his podcast https://anchor.fm/shaun-donaghy Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/13/202044 minutes, 54 seconds
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#181 Tattoo Talk

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about some other podcasts I (and Nora) will be on in the near future, a new tattoo, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/6/202020 minutes, 57 seconds
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#180 Chatting With Cam

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with Cam, a Crisis Intervention Officer here in the US. We talk about his role, what one can expect when the police are called into a crisis situation, and more! Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
2/1/202052 minutes, 31 seconds
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#179 Am I a Bad Person?

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about some recent events that have me again asking myself if I am a bad person. Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/28/202023 minutes, 14 seconds
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#178 Quin from Mania

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with Quin from the podcast Mania about his life with Bi-Polar 2, his show, and oh so much more. Check his show out: http://harlequingrim.com/the-mania-podcast-blog Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/23/202035 minutes, 51 seconds
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#177 New Job for 2020

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about my new job, my struggle getting things done, and oh so much more.   Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/17/202016 minutes, 24 seconds
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#176 New Year, Same Nora

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with my wonderful wife, Nora, about how 2019 went, her new blog, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out her blog! wineknitrun.com   Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/8/202043 minutes, 44 seconds
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#175 Giving Voice to Depression

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with Bridget and Terry from the amazing Giving Voice to Depression podcast. We discuss how they've dealt with mental illness, their show, and oh so much more. Be sure to check them out! https://www.facebook.com/GivingVoiceToDepression/ https://www.givingvoicetodepression.com/ https://twitter.com/VoiceDepression And their partner   Be sure to subscribe to this show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
1/4/202037 minutes, 2 seconds
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#174 2019 Chatter

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about visiting my mom, a short recap of 2019, and oh so much more.   Be sure to subscribe to the show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/28/201922 minutes, 6 seconds
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#173 Rejection

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about being rejected by a therapist, eating, work and oh so much more.   Be sure to subscribe to the show over on iTunes https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/20/201917 minutes, 40 seconds
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#172 Meet Brandon

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with one of the co-hosts of the fantastic podcast Peculiar Picture Show, Brandon. Brandon speaks openly about his life with BiPolar disorder, his show, and oh so much more. You can find him on Twitter over at https://twitter.com/BrandonOnMovies Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/13/201939 minutes, 23 seconds
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#171 Sudoku and Shame

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about a new wrinkle in my counting habit, my therapist suggested I am struggling with shame, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/5/201920 minutes, 28 seconds
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#170 Meet Mackenzie!

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with an incredible young lady about her journey with mental illness, her obstacles, successes and oh so much more. Check out her story on The Mighty https://themighty.com/u/mackenziebuck/content/5d5302eee61eda00c921bef0 Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
12/1/201933 minutes, 16 seconds
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#169 Half Marathon #2

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about getting ready for and finishing a half marathon and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/23/201918 minutes, 56 seconds
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#168 Clammy Hands

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about my new therapist, clammy hands, clenching and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/18/201924 minutes, 47 seconds
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#167 Claire and Me at Bruegger's Bagels

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with my good friend Claire about how she's been doing, work, exercise, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out Claire's podcast Exercising Depression Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/14/201943 minutes, 24 seconds
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#166 Sitting in the Rain

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about how I came close to ending the show, something that made me sad, and oh so much more. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/12/201916 minutes, 29 seconds
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#165 Meet Kate

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk with my dear friend Kate about her journey with mental illness oh so much more. Check out her blog over at  The Colour Of Madness Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
11/1/201953 minutes, 44 seconds
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#164 10 Mile Run Day

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about my lack of prep for my run oh so much more.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/27/201915 minutes, 4 seconds
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#163 Naming A to Z

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk about a childhood bedtime ritual, the night I almost ran away, and oh so much more.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/17/201918 minutes, 23 seconds
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#162 Breakfast at Panera

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about my sleep habits, recording at Panera, cortisone shots, compartmentalizing, and oh so much more.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/12/201916 minutes, 33 seconds
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#161 Knee to the Hurts

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about my new knee pain, how it's got me down, making tacos, an oh so much more.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
10/4/201921 minutes, 19 seconds
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#160 Struggling on the Back Porch

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about how I've been struggling lately and a bit about what I'm winning too.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/22/201922 minutes, 7 seconds
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#159 Death In The Family

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about my dad passing this past Sunday morning.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/13/201919 minutes, 45 seconds
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#158 No Name Given

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about my dad who's in his last bit in hospice. I remind everyone I feel nothing. It's a short one, sorry. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
9/6/201912 minutes, 50 seconds
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#157 Giving Voice To Running

Thanks for listening in to this episode!   I talk a bit about the great podcast Giving Voice To Depression and their latest episode.  A story about mental health days being available to Oregon students.  (Correction, in the show I said Utah) I wonder where, if it exists at all, the line is between needing a mental health day and just not having the skills to navigate an emotional time. I wonder about myself all the time if it's the depression driving or if I'm just lacking a tool in my toolbox. Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
8/29/201918 minutes, 32 seconds
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#156 Running To Hospice

Thanks for downloading the episode!   I talk about trying to figure out how to train for a half marathon. It's looking tougher than I originally thought. Dad is in hospice now and I played a big roll in making that decision. Yikes! I'm thinking about doing a Reddit AMA (Ask Me Anything) Oh I'm on Kik now too, as jamoalki of course.   Be sure to check out and subscribe to the show on iTunes! https://apple.co/2VHV8Aj   Everyone be safe and be well.   Tags:Suicide, Depression, Therapy, Depressed, Mental Illness
8/22/201923 minutes, 14 seconds
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#155 Car Talk Once Again

I'm recording in the car again, this time with video.  http://bit.ly/306Fem8  I talk about a couple of articles I've read and pimp some other podcasts.   Tags: Depression Suicide  Mental Illness
8/16/201918 minutes, 57 seconds
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#154 Potpourri With Claire

Join me as I sit and chat with my very good friend Claire from the Exercising Depression Podcast. We get into quite a bit of chatter. I hope you enjoy.   Tags: Depression Suicide  Mental Illness
8/11/201950 minutes, 35 seconds
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#153 Ramble City

Here's the latest episode where I ramble my way through 15 minutes. I'm navigating my way through the world of Reddit, wish me luck.   Thank you all for taking time to listen. 
8/7/201915 minutes, 16 seconds
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#152 YouTube?

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
8/1/201918 minutes, 33 seconds
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#151 Being Good With Nora

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
7/28/201944 minutes, 25 seconds
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#150 I'm a Good Dad

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
7/24/201921 minutes, 54 seconds
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#149 Vacation Time

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
7/10/201919 minutes, 49 seconds
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#148 New House, Still No Emotion

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
7/5/201920 minutes, 50 seconds
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#147 MentalHealthRawAndOpen

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
6/26/201921 minutes, 42 seconds
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#146 Moving and Feeling

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
6/26/201921 minutes, 8 seconds
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#145 Podcast Nostalgia

Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed Suicide
6/20/201926 minutes, 4 seconds
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#144 No Feelings

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6/10/201920 minutes, 44 seconds
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#143 Idle Introspection

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6/5/201930 minutes, 2 seconds
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#142 Introducing Exercising Depression by Claire!

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6/4/201911 minutes, 52 seconds
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#141 Nora's Back For Mora

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5/27/201943 minutes, 55 seconds
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#140 More Less Than

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5/23/201926 minutes, 50 seconds
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#139 How I Know I'm Getting Old

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5/16/201918 minutes, 9 seconds
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#138 Days of Medicine

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5/9/201928 minutes, 45 seconds
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#137 Claire 3.0

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5/3/201952 minutes, 43 seconds
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#136 Meet Gennifer

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4/27/201954 minutes, 38 seconds
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#135 Bringing Up the Past

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4/23/201925 minutes, 43 seconds
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#134 What's New?

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4/19/201919 minutes, 6 seconds
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#133 10 Things I Like About Me

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4/7/201922 minutes, 33 seconds
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#132 Waiting For February

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4/3/201920 minutes, 5 seconds
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#131 Feeling Better

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3/21/201927 minutes, 35 seconds
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#130 Catchup Show

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3/15/201922 minutes, 43 seconds
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#129 Rexulti

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3/5/201921 minutes, 27 seconds
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#128 Feeling Like Crap

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2/22/201912 minutes, 38 seconds
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#127 Hello Kaye

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2/9/20191 hour, 9 minutes
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#126 Me Time

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1/27/201922 minutes, 26 seconds
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#125 Nora's Back Again Again

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1/21/201940 minutes, 48 seconds
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#124 More Car Talk

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1/20/201919 minutes, 49 seconds
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#123 Meet Jody

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1/16/201942 minutes, 3 seconds
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#122 Knees and Poles

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1/11/201927 minutes, 25 seconds
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#121 Happy New Year 2019

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1/2/201921 minutes, 2 seconds
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#120 Christmas 2018

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12/26/201819 minutes, 55 seconds
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#119 More Memories

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12/22/201819 minutes, 33 seconds
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#118 Bald Head, No Edit

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12/12/201824 minutes, 25 seconds
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#117 Interview With Tyler

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12/4/201843 minutes, 15 seconds
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#116 Holiday Bustle

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11/29/201822 minutes, 26 seconds
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#115 Meet Andrew

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11/23/201831 minutes, 19 seconds
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#114 No News News

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11/19/201816 minutes, 1 second
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#113 Claire Talks About Self Harm

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11/15/201849 minutes
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#112 Empathy Revisited

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11/11/201822 minutes, 56 seconds
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#111 Meet Niles

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11/6/201831 minutes, 13 seconds
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#110 Lack of Creativity

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11/2/201815 minutes, 43 seconds
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#109 Thoughts On Suicide

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10/25/201810 minutes, 28 seconds
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#108 Self Esteemotions

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10/18/201818 minutes, 43 seconds
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#107 Catching up on Correspondence

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10/11/201826 minutes, 2 seconds
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#106 New Month

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10/1/201822 minutes, 21 seconds
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#105 Frasier and Friends

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9/20/201821 minutes, 21 seconds
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#104 It's the "100th" Episode

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9/15/201850 minutes, 35 seconds
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#103 Catching Up

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9/8/201818 minutes, 27 seconds
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#102 I Want 2014 Back

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9/1/201827 minutes, 4 seconds
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#101 Home From Vacation

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8/26/201822 minutes, 3 seconds
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#100 Good THings

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8/17/201818 minutes, 25 seconds
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#099 Nora, Me, and a Glass of Wine

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8/11/201842 minutes, 9 seconds
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#098 More Rambling

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8/6/201820 minutes, 2 seconds
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#097 Welcome Claire

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7/30/201845 minutes, 52 seconds
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#096 Feeling Bad About Feeling Better

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7/26/201826 minutes, 48 seconds
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#095 A Quick Few Minutes

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7/21/201822 minutes, 9 seconds
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#094 New Meds

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7/13/201822 minutes, 31 seconds
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#093 More Random Thoughts

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7/8/201821 minutes, 3 seconds
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#092 Accomplishment Or Not

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7/1/201820 minutes, 9 seconds
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#091 Catching Up In Apex

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6/20/201816 minutes, 18 seconds
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#090 Halfway There

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6/15/201823 minutes, 11 seconds
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#89 Moving Weekend Is Here

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6/9/201820 minutes, 31 seconds
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#88 See You In NC

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6/3/201822 minutes, 1 second
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#87 Feeling Blah

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5/23/201812 minutes, 39 seconds
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#86 It's The Little Things

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5/17/201824 minutes, 54 seconds
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#85 Am I Strong Enough?

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5/9/201821 minutes, 22 seconds
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#84 Moving Plans

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5/3/201822 minutes, 23 seconds
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#83 Depression Inventory

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4/28/201832 minutes, 44 seconds
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#82 Stress and Anxiety

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4/20/201822 minutes, 23 seconds
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#81 Nora Brings The Happiness

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4/13/201852 minutes, 27 seconds
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#80 Is Better Good?

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4/8/201820 minutes, 4 seconds
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#79 Ramblings

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3/28/201821 minutes, 42 seconds
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#78 Weekend Wanderings

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3/23/201825 minutes, 35 seconds
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#77 Depersonalization

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3/15/201821 minutes, 41 seconds
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#76 Avoidant Personality Disorder

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3/9/201830 minutes, 47 seconds
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#75 Mostly Back

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3/2/201819 minutes, 19 seconds
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#74 Nora's Back Again

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2/11/201843 minutes, 57 seconds
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#73 Avoid Everything

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2/2/201825 minutes, 42 seconds
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#72 How Am I Feeling Today

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1/23/201821 minutes, 8 seconds
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#71 Mood Swings

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1/18/201818 minutes, 1 second
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#70 What Is Love?

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1/14/201826 minutes, 16 seconds
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#69 Hospital Stays

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1/9/201830 minutes, 7 seconds
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#68 End Of 2017

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12/31/201723 minutes, 58 seconds
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#67 I'm a Guest on Al Levin's Show "The Depression Files"

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12/23/20171 hour, 22 minutes, 24 seconds
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#66 Don't Worry, Be Happy

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12/17/201721 minutes, 31 seconds
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#65 Cognitive Distortions

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12/6/201723 minutes, 29 seconds
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#64 Thanksgiving In An Odd Place

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11/28/201722 minutes, 5 seconds
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#63 Uncomfortable Not Being Miserable

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11/21/201721 minutes, 28 seconds
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#62 Detachment and Distraction

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11/10/201727 minutes, 8 seconds
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#61 Depression Permission

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10/29/201720 minutes, 14 seconds
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#60 Being a Dad

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10/25/201720 minutes, 39 seconds
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#59 Low Energy

I must say "low energy" a dozen times     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
10/18/201722 minutes, 2 seconds
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#58 More Car Talk

Chit chat while waiting for bagels     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
10/7/201720 minutes, 58 seconds
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#57 Nora's Back

Another duet with Nora.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
10/1/201740 minutes, 57 seconds
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#56 Suffer The Long Days

How each day is becoming a slog.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/26/201723 minutes, 24 seconds
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#55 Can't Sleep, Can't Win

Short episode recorded in my car.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/21/201716 minutes, 50 seconds
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#54 Interview With Julio From DSP

A long overdue interview with a good friend and great man.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/18/20171 hour, 21 minutes, 28 seconds
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#53 Death and Shout Outs

Death does not make me sad.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/14/201720 minutes, 28 seconds
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#52 Am I Sad Or Are You SAD

Where I talk about struggling again.       Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/7/201727 minutes, 28 seconds
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#51 Interview With Matt From Surviving My Past

  Surviving my past survivingmypast.net   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/3/201738 minutes, 15 seconds
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#50 I Hate Me

  I think of suicide because I hate myself.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
8/20/201719 minutes, 35 seconds
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#49 A Question From Kate

  Listener Kate asks how I felt after I woke up in the hospital following my suicide attempt.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
8/12/201723 minutes, 55 seconds
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#47 Idle Idle Idle

Thoughts from a tired working man.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
7/28/201746 minutes, 52 seconds
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#46 Nora Joins Me Once Again

Nora and I sit around talking.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
7/22/201734 minutes, 37 seconds
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#45 Rapid Ramblings #1

First time trying a short rapid thoughts recording.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
7/21/20176 minutes, 22 seconds
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#44 I Have a Job!!

I talk about my past therapy appointment and my new job.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
7/17/201720 minutes, 4 seconds
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#43 Twenty-Three

I talk about the thoughts of a depressed person. Listen to MC Lars's "Twenty-Three     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
7/6/201727 minutes, 46 seconds
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#42 MMPI Report

Listen in as I talk about the final results from taking the Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
6/30/201739 minutes, 29 seconds
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#41 On Location at Cape Cod USA

Listen in as I talk to jamo while we vacation at the beach. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
6/23/20177 minutes, 19 seconds
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#40 MMPI and Anxiety?

Listen in as I talk about the early results from taking the Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
6/14/201732 minutes, 1 second
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#39 A Mundane Life

Listen in as I recap my week after Nora's been away. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
6/5/201726 minutes, 12 seconds
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#38 Count Em Up

  Thoughts from solid land and the wide open sea. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
5/10/201725 minutes, 53 seconds
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#37 Cruising Around

  Thoughts from solid land and the wide open sea. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
4/28/201730 minutes, 49 seconds
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#36 More Jack-Assery

  I'm back after a little bit. Listen in as I explain. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
4/5/201719 minutes, 53 seconds
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#35 I'm Back...Kinda

  I'm back after a little bit. Listen in as I explain. Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
3/10/201719 minutes, 39 seconds
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#34 I'm a Nice Guy

A new voice? Fair warning, about a quarter of the original recording got cut out. Hope what's left makes sense.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
2/10/201724 minutes, 50 seconds
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#33 Nora's Side of January 21, 2015

Me reading Nora's blog post about my suicide attempt in 2015     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depresse
1/26/201716 minutes, 9 seconds
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#32 So Much Thinking About Eating

I talk about how I've fallen off the diet wagon and thinking about thinking.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
1/13/201729 minutes, 57 seconds
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#31 Trying To Find My Groove

I talk about the holidays and display how I'm so out of sorts right now.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
1/5/201722 minutes, 29 seconds
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#30 Q&A With My Friend Dave

Special guest alert!!   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
12/18/201629 minutes, 3 seconds
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#29 Pay It Forward #2

Here's the second installment of of Pay it forward!! Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed   Pay it forward
12/5/20165 minutes, 24 seconds
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#28 An Odd Assortment Of Stories

Listen in as I ramble on about some unrelated topics.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
11/10/201628 minutes, 46 seconds
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#27 Pay It Forward #1

  The innaugural episode of Pay it forward!! Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed   Pay it forward
10/31/20165 minutes, 45 seconds
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#026 Why Nostalgia Makes Me Sad

I talk about gaining some insight as to why some memories with my girls make me so freaking sad.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
10/27/201627 minutes, 10 seconds
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#025 Chatting With My Depression

I talk about trying to engage my Depression in conversation and the return of some dark thoughts.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
10/7/201634 minutes, 13 seconds
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#024 Catching Up With Previous Events

I talk about the reacquainting with old friends and I've got some 'splainin' to do.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/23/201629 minutes, 42 seconds
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#023 Do Unto Others...

I talk about the realization that I don't do for me.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
9/14/201626 minutes, 1 second
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#022 Anhedonia and Me

I talk about anhedonia and the effect it has on my life.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
8/31/201634 minutes, 17 seconds
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#021 Return of the Darkness

I talk about the past three weeks. The 0's and the downs of the wedding trip to Cape Cod. Suicide talk in this one.     Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
8/23/201638 minutes, 53 seconds
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#020 Wedding Bells

I talk about my improving mood and energy. Nora and my wedding plans on the Cape. And some other rabble babble.   Tags: Depressed Not Dead jamoalki Depression Depressed
8/1/201626 minutes, 29 seconds
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#019 Dear Journal

Depressed Not Dead - jamoalki   I discuss and share the song Dear Journal by Greydon Square.    Tags: Suicide Depression  Mental Illness
7/22/201624 minutes, 51 seconds
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#018 Gallbladders and laundry.

Depressed Not Dead - jamoalki   An unprepared episode where I talk some about the obstacles depression places in the way of my success.
7/21/201631 minutes, 43 seconds
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#017 The opposite of positive is...

Depressed Not Dead - jamoalki   I've been feeling "better" lately. But it turns out it doesn't take much time for me to lose that feeling.
7/10/201624 minutes, 6 seconds
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#016 Safety First

I've been working on my safety plan, you should to. I talk over the format of the safety plan I'm using to help protect myself. 
6/30/201634 minutes, 40 seconds
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#015 jamoalki vs The 2nd Amendment

This is my story to try to prevent a future, more depressed, me from buying a firearm.
6/21/201631 minutes, 12 seconds
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#014 Where I talk about my self image

This one took a while to record. I kept stumbling over half-thought ideas and words. Appreciate your feedback.
6/16/201625 minutes, 38 seconds
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#013 Where I ask for help and opinions

jamoalki is back with a new show. Listen in as I talk about a great resource I've found on the web, more questioning of myself and so much more.
6/10/201633 minutes, 6 seconds
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#012 A journey into self doubt

Why I quit another therapist.
6/3/201632 minutes, 12 seconds
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#011 The past two weeks...an update

It's been two weeks since I've tickled your ears. Listen in as I explain what I've been up to.
5/23/201635 minutes, 34 seconds
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#010 Meet Nora, The inaugural duet show!

Listen in and meet my lovely Nora. I know you're gonna love her!
5/9/201620 minutes, 52 seconds
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#009 Trying to make good of the past

Here I try to explain why I'm seeking out people I've had failedrelationships with and wonder if it's the correct thing to do.   I mentioned Defeat The Stigma in this episode. Please visit andsupport them with all the great work they're doing. defeatthestigmaproject.org
5/2/201624 minutes, 1 second
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#008 jamoalki has arrived

Listen in as I try to explain where "jamoalki" came from, why it's important and find out how many tattoos I have.
4/19/201622 minutes, 55 seconds
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#007 Take Inventory

Let's explore an app I use to track my mood. 
4/12/201637 minutes, 52 seconds
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#006 Confused About Concentration

Today I'm going to try to take you inside the jumbled of you benevolent host. This show is mostly unedited and maybe a bit tricky to stick with. I wanted to try to give a glimpse into how disjointed my focus can be. As usual, I have a page in front of me outlining what I want to say, and a few notes to try to stay on topic. Let's see how I did.
4/2/201630 minutes, 48 seconds
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#005 Affirmations and Platitudes.

Listen in as this cranky old guy tells you to get his lawn with your words of encouragement. As someone who is, was and probably will be in a state of major depression, I'm not too fond of hearing the (to me) empty words meant to be encouraging and uplifting. Give a listen and let me know what you think.   [email protected]
3/30/201622 minutes, 54 seconds
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#004 Don't be afraid to speak on your illness.

I'm back with another fantastic show to melt you heart and your ears. Trying some new mic setups, safe to say this was not the best option. Seem to have picked up a lot of breathing. Apologies in advance.
3/26/201624 minutes, 6 seconds
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#003 The Day

Thanks to those who sent in emails! Listen in as I talk a little about my suicide attempt.
3/23/201618 minutes, 34 seconds
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#002 The Program

Still not dead. Still learning the ropes.
3/18/201624 minutes, 35 seconds
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#001 First try

This offering will serve as my introduction and test run of my podcasting abilities.
3/13/201617 minutes, 47 seconds